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What a day!

My favorite blogger Emmy from Love woke me up this morning nominated my blog today for

I was really excited to be nominated by her! If you click THIS you can check out what the award is and who else she nominated! 

If you are coming to me because you saw this on Emmy's blog WELCOME! I am so glad you decided to check it out!

Today was a pretty grand day! (Did I just say grand?... Well it was!) It is my 4th Anniversary to my Best Friend and Husband! I can't believe sometime that it's been 4 years... but sometimes it seems like much longer since we have been together 7 1/2! I am very proud of our marriage though; It has not been a fairy tale that much is for sure! It has been an amazing ride and one I gladly would do again.

I write a lot about the stuff that goes on in my daily life and a lot of that has been missing my husband so much this year because of his job working nights. We have seen each other probably half as much this year because of it. It has made this year a challenge and one I believe we are successfully (most of the time) overcoming. We know it will not be permanent and that helps.

Tomorrow we are celebrating as tonight he had to work... which sucks! I am so excited to go out to a nice dinner without our daughter and just reflect and talk about us. I can't wait!

This morning I woke up to this super cute gift

It's kind of hard to see BUT it was really cute and thoughtful... He wrote on the mirror to make sure I saw it first thing in the morning. It says:

 HAPPY FOURTH ANNIVERSARY!!!

THE STORY OF US...

Then underneath that it has 3 pictures, the 1st says best date with a drawing of me on the tail gate of his old truck under the stars (which was our very first date and I loved it!) then an arrow to a picture of us married and then another arrow to us with our daughter (who has a comment bubble saying Mommy Daddy! which she says all the time)

It was really cute especially with the note he left on the counter. It made me feel so much more special than a store bought card and just made me laugh because it was really cute and funny. Also pretty awesome that I got nominated by Love woke me up this morning and literally it did :)

Also my 2 favorite TV shows premiered tonight (Parks and Rec, and The Office), which I didn't get to watch BUT I know it is there to watch and yeah I am a bit excited. I actually chose to watch the 2 episodes of Parenthood I missed! That show always makes me cry somehow because it's real life stuff they deal with and if you watch it you probably understand why I watch it.

Now it is way too late for me to be up AGAIN, but I have a few things to do for friends tomorrow and then it's sleep, work and a Date with my handsome husband! I can't wait!

Hmmph

So many thoughts go through my head on a daily basis. It's weird to me how I can understand something so clearly one day and look back on it and see something else... This is very vague I know but I have just been thinking about so many things lately. How people function, why they act the way they do (including myself). How small groups of people can give a whole group a bad rep and turn people away... How a big group of people suck and there are a small few who are amazing in the same group. How people can't own up to the things they do but want to "fix it"... again all vague but you can probably think of multiple topics that can fit into the things I am saying, can't you?

I keep trying to make sense of somethings, but I know somethings I will never be able to make sense of. Sometime I envy people who don't waste time thinking about detailed things like me, but then do I, really? Do I want to walk around not knowing or thinking about how I can figure things out?

One thing I have decided on is I am taking a break from church. Not from God... but from Church. I am so sad about it BUT can't bring myself to go to a place that is corrupt and many more things. Besides... the church isn't jut a building and that is what I am taking a break from. I am going to be studying in small personal groups and by myself. To do something without a ton of structure (structure and organization can be in different categorize... I like organization lol). I want a place of interaction, study, questions and conversation... I think churches these days are missing the mark and forgetting that the greatest commandment of all is LOVE. It's not about rules and pushing agendas... God is a big boy and doesn't need your agenda, and your harsh words that come from defense and anger, pride and selfishness. 

I wish I knew the actual numbers on people that study the bible that attend church... my guess is it's very low, most get what they say from the preacher/pastor/reverend ect. I don't want to be like that anymore. 

Can I get an AMEN?

Psalm 139:23

New International Version (NIV)

²³ Search me, God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.

KROD is going country a little late

In August we had a few delays in people getting videos in so we postponed getting our matches. BUT here I am hosting Helly :)

She went old school with the WATERMELON CRAWL! This song brings me back to when I lived in Wyoming! Fun times!

Take a look at my video at One Red Wall's blog where I am singing Sugarland's "Might make me Believe"!

ALSO WE NEED MORE SINGERS! Bad or good! If you want to have fun and do a monthly Karaoke video PLEASE shoot me a comment and check out Karaoke Ring of Death to get involved! 

Now watch Helly's video!: