Just Sandy

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Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Back to Blogging

Well, well, well. It has been some time since I have written a post over here! 

I've been through a whirl wind of things since my last posts in January, when I was laid off. So let’s catch up!

It took a fight and several weeks... almost two months to get my unemployment checks coming in, but finally it came in. My claim was set to expire on January 17, 2015... one year from being laid-off. I was going about applying for jobs, and joined a fantastic MOMS Club in the months after being laid-off. My life came to a crashing halt when my husband was injured at work and then hospitalized with a serious Staph infection that got bone deep. He was placed on a continues drip antibiotic via a PICC line and sent home for 6 weeks off work and a weekly, at home nurse changing the PICC line site and drawing labs, to keep an eye on how it was fighting the infection. During his first week at home something seemed off. He was continuously growing more and more fatigued, sleeping almost all of the days and nights. It was addressed but dismissed until he broke out in another high fever, landing us back in the ER room. This was the day of my daughters very first dance recital, and I had to miss it (However she was able to perform because my in-laws took her for me). 

After many more hours in the ER and almost having to be readmitted because of insurance issues, he was given a new antibiotic that was a daily dose instead of a continuous drip. This medication started working immediately and he shown great improvement over the next few days. We fought back and forth with the workers comp insurance... it was (and is) a royal pain in the neck! We still have yet to receive any funds from his 2 months off. That was JUNE people! Get with the program, it's August.

In all of this drama, stress and financial hardship, somehow... before my unemployment claim expired I received a letter stating I had "exhausted all unemployment benefits"... How can this be? Unemployment lasts a year! I did that calculations, knew how much I would be getting and then so did they. How could I run out before my claim is up? This I still don't know. We had some issues with  Scott's original position he was suppose to go back to, which I am not comfortable discussing on a public blog, but let's just say we instantly had a huge financial change in our household. 

In April I picked up a very part time job playing Disney Princesses for events and Children's parties (No I do not work at Disney Land... I still have yet to go there). It is very fun, but very part time. It pays very well for the time I am a princess so it has been a huge help. This brings me to another point. Why the heck can't I find a job? I have lots of experience, good references and even a fantastic letter of recommendation! I have applied for hundreds, possibly thousands of jobs since January and have managed to land 3... that's right only 3 interviews. One never called back and for that I am glad for, it would have been an awful job, only contributing to our stressful situation. I have a second interview for one, and one tomorrow morning. 

I have NEVER, EVER had a hard time finding employment. I also wasn't as picky about my needs either. Having a child comes with responsibility, which I have, and money. Money really is the issue. I am not above working many jobs, but I can't take jobs that I can't place my daughter in a safe, affordable preschool/daycare. I truly desire to work no more than part time until she is in school and even then I want flexibility to drop her off and pick her up, or at least one of them if Scott can do the other. I am forced to battle internally with what is more right to do. When I did work full time I had such a small amount of time with her it really wasn't fair to her. I also made the decision to go for a career and get back in school, cutting my time with her even shorter some days. Being unemployed has given me so much time with my daughter and I am truly blessed by this.

So here is my dilemma, which caused me to write this blog. I have potentially two opportunities in the near future. I may have to turn one down because I can only see it taking away from my time to look for a better paying job, with more advancement opportunities. The other I may have to start out low on the pay scale but have better advancing opportunities. I just can't see taking a position that only hinders our situation, without a foreseeable advancement.

 I am a firm believer in the Bible and Jesus. God provides. He does, He always has. This isn't our first go around with a financial hardship, I mean we got married right as the recession hit and have been through 3 lay-offs in 5 years. He has gotten us through and shown His faithfulness. It is hard to see past this point right now, but I know He can and that is what I keep trying to focus on. Today was probably one of the harder days as I sat down to see what next months budget will possibly look like. It is never comforting to see more outgoing than incoming. 

We have been racking our brains on how to lower the outgoing, but unless we "give back" our Jeep and commit financial suicide... and career suicide as a person going into the accounting field... we can't see how to lower our outgoing. I have cut every place I can cut so I have put my trust in the Lord again, and wait for Him to show me what He has in store because it is now beyond my control. Applying for jobs is only part of the battle and I am doing my part. 

"And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus" -Phil 4:19

So God I say to You: I am grateful for all You do in my life. You see the needs of my family and my individual needs. I ask for You to provide and guide me to make the correct choices that align with Your will. Give me faith unshakable, even when everything seems hopeless. 


Wednesday, January 22, 2014


So many people are reaching out on Facebook saying they want or need help in different ways to get weight off, and be healthy. I believe I can help. In addition to this blog I have decided to dedicate another blog to putting as much information as I can out there for helping people who want to be healthy and maybe aren't quite sure how. That blog is called Food and Fitness Friday.

I am so excited for it! I am always spreading my new found health and fitness knowledge with people (or old found health and fitness knowledge with new people). If you know me, you know I have talked about it. That is because, as some of you know, I had to go on a journey of discovering what healthy was so I myself could get healthy. This blog is going to be a space where I will be talking about the things that can help people get healthy. I give them advice and tools they refer back to in case they forget anything.

Please check it out, subscribe and please spread the word. I have a welcome post as of today and have already prepped my post for Friday!

Thank you in advance!

Thursday, January 16, 2014

Here is where I find myself

It has been a while since my last blog post... why? Because I have... I take that back... HAD no time. I was working full time, going to school full time, being a Mom, starting making and selling my own jewelry, and let's not forget staying in shape. So how do I have time for this post? Glad you asked...

Today I am officially UNEMPLOYED. Not by choice, I have been laid off. 

Naturally, I cried my eyes out, thought of all the horrible things that will happen without the amount of money I was making, and filed for unemployment. After speaking with my mother in law who happens to be a Human Resource Manager, we figured out approximately how much I will pull in while on unemployment and talked about how this may actually be a blessing.

I realized I get to be a stay at home mom again. I don't have to pay someone to watch my child (which if you don't know it cost upwards of $550-$1000 depending on whether it is an in home daycare or a preschool with daycare... if you are thinking Yikes, you would be correct), I get to teach her more, see her more and experience more with her which was the plan when I had her. When my husband was laid off I had to changed that plan and now I am literally forced into it again. 

I also now get to enjoy being a house wife. I get to have time to clean my house, and cook! OH I love cooking these days (when I have the energy, which work zapped me of most days). I am into healthy food, farmers markets and trying new recipes and I can take my daughter to the farmers markets for some local cheaper, organic foods! Teaching her how to be healthy and getting her outside. 

Some other blessings I didn't think about at first is, I don't have to DRIVE an hour in traffic each way to work!!! YAY!!! I hate traffic! HATE IT! No more of that! Also more time for the things I want to pursue:
Music. My awesome husband got me a microphone for Christmas and it hooks up to my mac, (which I am learning how to use more and more) and to the system at church! 
Jewelry. I have been making Jewelry. Uproar Jewelry check it out. 
Also... I can draw... did you know that? Well now you do. Tonight I went to one of my favorite stores of all time, Hobby Lobby, and purchased some things for jewelry, a pastel chalk sketch pad, paint, paint brushes, and blank canvases. Should keep me busy when I need an outlet.
School. I don't have to stress so much about fitting my homework and essays into such small time frames, maybe even double up and finish sooner!

The last thing that has been pointed out to me is, I get to be picky about a job. I don't have to take a job I don't want. I can ask for the wage I think I deserve and get good benefits that we need. 

In all of this I see the scary side too, but I have to know and trust that God has me, he has control and "Look at the birds of the airthey do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?" Matthew 6:26

I matter to God and he puts us through things to make us stronger. A friend told me tonight from a sermon he saw "your muscles won't grow without lifting weights, and your faith won't grow without a little hardship". This is something I needed to hear. We will get through this and we will be stronger. 

Thank you to all of my friends and family that are praying and looking out for us. You truly touch my heart with your kindness.